Zoloft almost acted like a generalized emotional “governor”, limiting the amplitude of the sine wave representing the full emotional range. Both the good and the bad were being affected, which is what I feel made things feel so empty. I wasn’t getting the same amount of “feeling” from normally enjoyable tasks and activities. Alternatively, things felt like they were getting better because the amplitude of anxious emotions was being governed, suppressing feelings of nervousness, or just suppressing a general anxious feeling. (nervousness is not the same as feeling anxious)

When I gave CBD a try, the first thing I noticed was that an underlying tension was gone. It was almost like a tight guitar string extending through my body that was always in a state of tense vibration was cut and I felt calm. I was relieved. No, it wasn’t a one-time miracle cure, but the benefits I’ve experienced have only improved over time. Stressful stimuli that would normally cause me to abruptly snap, I did not have the same tension as before. I don't want to make it sound like it was an abrupt thing like cutting a guitar string would be it was actually very gentle. I was doing something around the house and the presence of tension was just gone. I remember thinking “well this is interesting”, making a mental note of it, and continued on. As I continued, I noticed little things that would normally bother me did not anymore. I didn’t feel my social anxiety was nearly as bad either, and I just felt good. Tasks and activities that I previously enjoyed were finally enjoyable again. The things (social events, etc) that used to spin me out of control no longer snowball into HUGE anxiety-ridden events. Since I like numbers and graphs I’m sticking with them to illustrate my point below.

Again the BLUE SINE WAVE represents normal emotional range’s while unmedicated, the GREEN SINE WAVE represents emotional ranges I experience while treating with CBD.

As you can see from the image above my positive non-anxious feelings are still intact, I still enjoy doing things while “ungoverned” by Zoloft. I still like the things that I like that make me me! However, the anxious feelings still inside of me are not being “governed” by CBD. They are being TREATED by CBD. So you could say that the 0 point line of the graph has been shifted as well.

The next image is simply an amalgamation of the previous graphs. I like how it shows everything together, and is a good representation of how I feel between the three conditions of treatments: untreated, traditional medicine, and CBD.